Kathy's Goddess Art Advice

I adore goddess art and paint primarily beautiful women. All women are beautiful to me and each one a goddess. Art is from the soul, and I guess there is really no other way of doing art, than pulling it from what moves your spirit.

Being an artist is a complex journey. If you are an artist you know exactly what I mean. One day we are on top of the world, feeling success, the next day we feel like everything we touch feels vacant and unkind.

Drat it all! Some days I think, forget all of it!! I will look into being a plumber or architect or who knows what.

If you are an artist you know.. deep in your soul, that no way is that possible. You have been called. You know that in your heart and there really is no running from it. No way, no how. Embrace it.. meet your calling and know that it is like an infant that you cannot possibly leave alone out in the woods. This if life and your personal meaning.

Here below is a poem I wrote about life in general. It speaks to triumphs and failures, dark days and days with rainbows.

"I Am Life"

I have witnessed souls that cannot survive

past their own limitations

and sometimes

that is me

I have witnessed dreams that reached high

then fell

and yes

sometimes that was me

I have breathed in life

seen sunrises and sunsets

views of vast deserts

and on top of mountain treasures

stood still in awe

and walked too quickly from them

I have been young

and I have felt the bitter pill of age

I have felt frozen and been warmed again

as winter knew spring

and finally reached towards summer

I have cried and felt tears at midnight

waking me up from my own whaling sound

I have felt betrayal

yet stood up for the innocent

I have betrayed others

and felt the sting of my own guilt

I have come this far

and yet not gone far at all

I have experienced miracles

and I have slept right through them

I have praised the spectacular

felt overwhelmed by it

and felt numb

to the day at hand

I lived

yet at times

I've focused on death

I have knelt before my god

in worship

and I have refused to bow

and did not close my eyes

and yet

I did somehow

survive

I have been noticed

adored

ignored

made to feel beautiful

and then passed by

It has been brutal

and the distain of it

has made me feel defensive

and sometimes angry

It has been brutal

yet the distain of it

has caused me to feel softer

and more understanding

I've been reborn

and I've retreated

I've known silence

and too much noise

I've understood

and known my limitations

squandered all

yet embraced treasures

I am imprisoned by the concept

that all is well

regardless

I know

despite everything

that there is a broader side and perspective

I am well within the cracks

and on the smooth sidewalk

I have roared

and then retreated

felt belief in the strongest way

then fell back to questions

nothing is that clear

hopefully

I felt my grave

and yet I could not stop breathing

and would not succumb to endings

of anything

I am not dead

yet sometimes

I am not fully

alive

I have felt and breathed whispers

shouted so loud I lost my speech

I have been humbled

misplaced my mind

and found I'd never really lost it

I have sacrificed

felt the blood of giving in my soul

and I have most selfishly

held back

I have loved

brutally, honestly, seductively

and I have not

for the very same reasons

loved at all

I have hated blindly

known I could force revenge

wanted to take out all who opposed me

spewed venom

then humbly taken it all back

I have stroked the devil

bid that demon unto me

pinned his voice onto my breast

at times

and I have known gods

who helped me find the surface

I have fallen

ached

considered my life must end

and then standing inside a rainbow

felt the intrepid coach of love

I am life

I am alive

by Kathy Ostman-Magnusen

2 January 2013

TURN ON THE MUSIC!!

I AM ALIVE!

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I consider some of my paintings as fantasy art warrior women, not the kind you would normally think of I guess... but my women are strong, reflective and yet sensitive to the moment at hand.

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Whimsical angel drawings and such... angles and fairies around you.

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I cannot get enough of this song or spirit... it is what maps any fairy tale adventure, causes flight, creates that warrior woman inside.

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